Okay, so I started to feel bored in school. Nothing was my priority and I actually almost anything I want.
Mondays are actually the best and also the worst. The best part is I only have 2 periods of Math in school and I get to go for language school; the worst part is I don't really get to mix around with the other students.
On tuesday, I get to watch the film with my classmate in German course. We are watching ''The Perfume''. It's a french based film about a gifted guy with his smell sense. He could smell really well, the best nose in France. However, he wanted to capture and sustain the specially attractive scent from females. He killed girls that owns really good scent and found a way to capture the scent. So, at last he died in a disgusting way. It's quite a slow paced film but full with suspense. It was tiring for me because I didn't read the book. It was some how interesting. I had English and I didn't write my poem because I was lazy and I had no idea. The teacher makes mistakes every lessons I have attended. I don't really mind pointing it out but that would be embarassing for her and also bad for me in some ways, I am really lucky that she is a nice teacher. I couldn't meet up with my contact person because I made a mistake on the time my sport course starts. However, I was also an hour late for my sport course because a handful of the students got the time confused including Doro. So, I was also late. Then I went to stroll around severin strasse to see what stores are in that area. Anyways, if I knew it earlier, I could have met up with my contact person. It was just a pity.
On Wednesday, I met up with a freanch horn player from the B orchestra along the way to school. I talked a lot with him in German. He seems a really nice boy, for his age. I was not required to stay in school for the whole day because I have 3 hours spare. I started to think whether I should stop the choir in school because I felt really boring. The people in choir are so quiet. However, they started to speak with me and smiled more than usual. After that, I stayed for orchestra. I got my B-flat Trumpet with a monthly rental fees of 10 Euro per month. I was thinking of not joining the orchestra because I was not having any fun. Again, things worked out. Two of the young trumpet members helped me in my German hand-outs and they started to talk more to me. They are really nice. Laureths, the 16 years old trumpet players that looks miserable most of the time, talked to me too. Although he seems reluctant to reply a Hi to me, I think he is just shy. The orchestra performance that was planned to be held next Wednesday was cancelled. So, logically speaking, they are really young children and they are hard to control. The duration for performance preparation is insufficient too. It's a pity that those who really worked for it couldn't perform, on the other hand, it is a good decision for the orchestra to have more time to sort matters out. After that, I was really sure that I saw Laureths behind me when I leave the school. I was suprised that he arrived early than me. I was really curious so I asked him to show me the way next time when I see him. He smiled. Great, this boy actually smiles. I hesitated to say Bye to him when he left the tram because of his face expression, I didn't say it and he turned around. Okay, that was a bad sign. I should say it next time.
I got luck on Thursady morning, I saw Laureths while I was half awake in the tram. (I snoozed all the way from the beginning to the end) I catched up with him after boarding out of the tram. He was a little suprised. I got luck! He showed me the fast and direct way to school. I talked really much to him. He is really a nice boy. He was in Barcelona for 6 months and he enjoyed it very much. Spain is obviously so different from Germany. The people in Spain are really friendly and the weather was warm all the time. It was suprising that he couldn't speak Spanish while the others I know managed to master the language in that given period of time. So, I learned that how effective a person learns depends on his/her capability. There are no standardized answer to one's progress of learning because in every rules or theories, there are meant to be exceptions. During our conversation, he asked about my class. When I told him that I was in the 11th grade he didn't belived. Especially when I told him about my age. Oh well, it happens all the time. I don't think it happens only to me but also other asians. I had a great time speaking with him. I played basketball for sports. Oh Lord, I had a little fear for the game although it was much better compared to volleyball. I can't run with the ball. What I was able to do was to pass and block others. Any how, having some skills is better than having none. I went for a monthly meeting in the evening with the AFS exchange students and volunteers. It was so boring due to the absence of most members. I felt really upset when they spoke in Spanish. I felt that the people in school are so much better than them. I was actually allienized fro 30 minutes. I understand that they love their country or exchange country, but they should really show some respect and be considerate to others. Now I know how carima felt when I allienised her in school by talking in my mother language among friends without translating to her.
On Friday, I got only four periods in school due to the Parents day. I went home early and spent most of the time at home. I went to the gardening outlets and discounter market with Kate. It was a nice trip. At night I was asked about the JPA scholarship by Joe Yin. She was a little dissapointed when she knew that she didn't get the scholarship offer. She finally had a plan for our trip during summer. I thought that I was going to make my decisions all the time. I am sure that she don't know what she would like to see in Hamburg or Berlin. I had to do most of the research. I received a mail too from AFS regarding the midstay trip. I was allowed to choose 3 options of camps and of course I have to pay. It was really expensive and I had to think about it. Through the Friday news magazine I discovered that it is Culture Sunday in Cologne. I would really like tovisit museums because most entrance fees of the museums in Cologne are free of charge. So, Kate looked up the magazine. She actually planned for me and not being considerate on my friends. However I find it good that she helped out because I had other things in head in that moment.
On Saturday, I checked the JPA results. I was granted an offer from the government. I was so happy and I leaped in joy. I went down immediately to tell Kate. Okay, so I told her. I felt so stress up when she told me what I should do. Obviously I know what I should do. Sometimes I felt that her suggestions are indirectly harsh on my parents. Maybe I gave her a false impression or she understood it wrongly about my parents. On the way back home to the market, Kate suggested that I should tell my parents to pay for the expensive sailing camp because I got the JPA scholarship. I don't really like to do that to my parents although my parents used that method on me for my UPSR in exchange for money. I feel that I in a way blackmailing my parents if I do that. In my opinion, I should just ask directly without any conditions. I told her directly that I don't like to do it. She started to tell me how her girls disliked it too and she was a little sarcastic on me. She told me how a mother will I be in the future. Well, I didn't like that method because I saw the results from children of other families and also my own. I just simply answered her that I don't know what kind of mother I would be. It might be effective to educated a child if I use it as little as possible, but I already knew what I want. I didn't attend scholarship interviews for other things, it for my future. Sometimes I just do whatever I would like to and I don't really need to explain as long I know what I am doing. The issue was left aside because I was upset. I am really sure that I will talk nonsense or crap if I continue. She is a really nice lady and I respect her for educating such good children.
Afetr talking to my parents and reading through the contents of the offer letter, I was turned down by the fact that the scholarship was for PIDN and not what I have apllied for. I didn't get the type of scholarship I applied for but I got the subject I am interested in. I couldn't make a decision on whether to take up the offer. while the university is in Kedah and the allowance was not as much as expected. I was totally stressed up.
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