My summer holidays

Hey guys,

The summer and the summer holidays here are over. It is already Fall now in Germany. It is really saddenning to say that I have only four months left. I have to somehow utilise my time to do whatever I want. I can't guarantee that I will be back in Germany. I would really like to come back, but I still have to wait for another 2 years. I have to be determine to acheive my goals and time will tell.

Obviously, I have to apologise for not updating my blog for such a long time before the summer holidays. I decided to take a break for the summer holidays but eventually I almost forgot about it until Aces and Mun reminded me about it.

Before the sommer holidays, my host sister Gong Joo came for a month and Jamie stayed here until the second week of the summer holidays. Just before I depart to Schöneberg with my mom and Joe, I realised that Jamie made me think about the things that I have never though of. I learned a lot from him. I can't believe that I even felt a little sad that I might not be able to see him again for the rest of my stay. To think about ti, I can't  actually put a statement on Jamie that he is spoiled. I figured out that he grows mature as time passes by. He is anyhow just a child and still learning through time.  I have to really be careful to not be harsh on kids. They just need time and I have to be patient. Children are pioneers in picking up adult's habit.  Now I think that it is not such a big deal if Jamie is a picky eater, he just can't choose. What is done is already done, unless my sister would really want him to change.To change a child's lifestyle is as equal for me to tell the parents to change. Unless if the child thinks differently and thinks for himself.

 Everytime when I think around this topic, it reminded me of me myself from a few years back then. I wasn't a really bright person, to be honest. Through experiences and exposure, and of course luck (that Dear God gave), I learn and change. I started to figure things out. I think more before I act.(most of the time) Through the years, I have learned that to obtain my own happiness, I have to be positive no matter how heavy the rain is, I even made myself enjoy the wet and cold days.  'Catastrophes' that we have encountered in life perhaps are just puny ridiculous obstacles that we later laugh at.

Forget about Jamie's 'picky eating habit', I feel that I am getting more nutrition concious after the arrival of my Aunt. I started 2 months before summer to take the initiative to know what nutrition I am supplying to my body. Every processed food I am eating are first anaylised. Not to blame my 'healthy' Aunty eats really healthy, it just feels good to know that every bite I take in is nourishing every single cells of mine.  Not forgetting to mention that it is a healthy way to lose weight. I have succesdully loosed 3 or 4 kg for the past few months. Now aiming to loose more than my initial weight. I gained 4kgs shortly after my arrival and obviously was really depressed. As a result, I decided to loose it. After all my hard work, I lost the 'extra' weight and now aiming to loose more just to have a better Basal Metabolic Index. It makes me feel better and healthier.

My mom Kate once told me that I will learn and know more about the person who I am travelling with. I agree to it. After the trip to Iceland and Copenhagen with my Aunt during the last 2 weeks of summer holidays, I have to accept that everyone have their own weak spot. I started to be annoyed when she started to question about my decisions. Sometimes I prefer to adapt to this culture because I think it is better and there is no right or wrong. I was even suprised to find out that she has the habit of making sure that she is correct. She is exposed to many different culture and she accepts it. I had to actually use a really strong or rather harsh tone to convince her about the reason why I prefer things done this way instead of another. Just for a really clear example, I use this toothpaste that the tube is designed upwards to make sure that the toothpaste flows down to the cap, so that we can save all the fuss in squeezing the last bits out, for economical reasons. I told her that I prefer and it is better to place the toothpaste upwards with the head facing downwards. I had to give a reason, which was it is easier for the paste to flow out. Then  the next day, she told me that she still has to press the tube to squeeze it out. And started questioning me about my 'stupid' theory.(to show me that I make no sense...she didn't accept the reason I gave and it seemed to me that she really wanted to put the tube her way). I got fed up of things like that from her. To avoid complications, I just told her to do what she wants.

Anyhow, I am really glad and I find her really sweet for bringing me along to the Scandinavians for the holidays. The things there are extremely expensive. Everytime we buy food or souveniers, I have thank God that I am in Germany, with food sold in reasonable prices, so that people in Germany are able to afford, at least they will not starve. I can't imagine how am I going to survive (and especially, my parents) if I am really sent to Scandinavian countries as my host country.  Back to the topic, my Aunt talked to me alot and told me much about my family conditions. She bought me lots of stuffs and brought me to lots of places. She shared her opinion and even listened to mine. We had a really great time together.

I thought about women who are ageing and not married.  The disadvantages of being old and single as a woman are that they start to develop their own quirks through the years. Being old and single for a long time make a person think really different. It is okay to be young and single, but I have to at least have a relationship to know and learn how to share and care for others. Not to say that those who have not gone through a relationship don't share or care, it just a general statement.  My Aunt cares for others, just in a different way and from a different perspective. I wanted to be an independant person, not planning to rely on my husband if I am going to have one. To tell the truth, I don't even want to be married in the first place. However, after discovering about the pros and cons, I decided that I have to at least have somebody to be with. And nonehtheless, it is not necessary to get married.

to be continued...